I stood in the kitchen. Answer (1 of 6): First, I am sorry. Then, on the third day I couldnt take it anymore and I went down that street- and there she was, dead on the ground. She was such a good cat and theres an empty space in my heart without her. We have spent a lot of money so far trying to heal him but he might have problems for life . It wasnt alarming but she was definitely more active than usual. Take responsibility for your brokenness and get help. In 1977 Maryann Gray was a 22-year-old college graduate with her whole life ahead of her, when a little boy darted out in front of her car. The Animal Legal Defense Fund is rated four-stars by Charity Navigator, is a Platinum Level GuideStar Exchange participant, a Better Business Bureau Accredited Charity, and an Independent Charity Seal of Excellence awardee, ensuring that we meet the highest standards of accountability, efficiency . Hes with me for 7 months i still remember the day i got him he was a cute kitten but was very afraid slowly he learned his name and so many things Id everything to keep him well. The vet says its not my fault and she has underlying issues. The doctor fully supported me in that decision. He died at 10 and a half and was otherwise a healthy and strong cat. Now without her presence our home was now filled with silence . How are you doing and how can you help us with advice. I saw a single rabbit bolt down a hole when she saw me. See parent question. I usually replace his water and give him vitamin paste before I go to work too, but I didnt even do that. I know it's been some time, and we also currently have another springer that we love to bits - he's next to me right now, but I just still feel so guilty for killing my poor dog. Reddit and its partners use cookies and similar technologies to provide you with a better experience. These are all questions Ive asked myself a thousand times in the days since. Additionally, certain dogs are genetically hypersensitive to the medication. When I picked her up at 530 and asked if the meds were given I was told no. Im struggling with guilt after my 7 1/2 year old ferret, Ichabod, died yesterday. I don't want to go into it but it was the most horrible thing I've ever seen, and I still feel so guilty. Hi everybody. Our older dog, didnt pay him any attention at all and our younger dog was curious and only wanted to play. The little thing would follow her around the whole house. It might be that they also still carry guilt and shame around, but haven't talked about it to anyone either. I didnt take responsibility for the decision, and thats on me, always. Dealing With Guilt When You Caused Your Pets Death image by Laurie. I make myself confortable watching them and I notice something kinda annoying. i cant stop crying. I love reading these comments and having everyone ignore a major thing you brought up; you have anger issues. The integration went well. The grief is overwhelming. You have to call the police. Kion's cool with it, though. Sorry. Maybe it would help to talk to your parents about it, ask them how they feel about the incident? I asked if I could pick her up right before closing (totally assuming they would treat the sugar and hypertension with the extra time while having some time to observe). New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. Degeneration and weakness of muscles. This year we found a small lump and I said we need to keep an eye on that . To clarify the reason Im so worried about his sister dying of grief is because my grandmother had three cats. I turned to take a bite of my soup and I her a thud. She explained my Buttercup had new onset diabetes with a sugar of 330 and hypertension. She hated that case. Answer. Mum had an accident and has been in hospital with a broken hip, so Id been taking care of Muffin. "What a deal!" you think, as you lift him into the back seat. He must be hating me for not helping him. If you believe in the kind of thing, I am sending my dog with messages of love to pets who have passed. He was very attached and dependable cat compared to my other cats. I caressed his little head for the last time, scratching his ear as I often did, and then I shoveled the cold earth over my tiny dude, my buddy weasel bear. Ozgur . My poor darling Pixie she was in so much pain and it felt like she was crying out no no when I picked her up to put in the basket to go to vet. Shortly after she arrived, I came down with Covid. All I know is theres so many questions we all have at this sudden and shocking time, and were heartbroken he never came to his new home and that we werent there with him in his last hours. The next day she seemed to be ok to me, i know that i needed to bring her to the vet but its too late the next morning i wake up and shes already lying on the edge of cage but still breathing i googled the contact number of the nearest 24 hours vet clinic from our house to rush her there but only to find out that the clinic was temporarily close due to this pandemic and the other nearest vet clinic in our house was not 24 hours and bringing you pet there is through having an appointment with them. Almost never Barked. I told her I can easily observe her for improvement. He died!! And I was rewarded for my efforts. Our beloved family dog, Billy - I gave the car a little gas to get up the hill, and I never even saw him. Am feeling so much guilt and grieve over her . She died at 4 years old because I neglected her. I feel terribly guilt and sad because I assumed he died by over eating during last week and also i didnt not take immediate action. This is imagined guilt. Dogs usually experience mild side effects from fish oil. I cant just reassure him one last time and its so painful. The doc also said that it would be a very long and expensive road to try to get her well (including the severe wound on her face) and that even then her prognosis was considered guarded at best. . You want him to trust you, you have to trust him. I left to Zumba class to get distracted and get support didnt make it back home until the next day she was weak so immeditly I gave her Pedialyte she seem weak gave her amoxicillin then I decided to give her some wet food she didnt want to eat but I figured she need it food for her immuy system to fight her infection i forced fed her 2 syringes of wet dog food right away she went weak i rushed to the vet was there in 8 min right away the vet started working on her 15 min later she died the Vet told me that it was most likely she died because of me force feeding her that it went to her lungs. I miss you . Im spending more times with my other two cats while comforting them. My dog had lost a few ounces but his blood work showed that his kidney and pancreatic levels were . Thats when I heard him really cry. i cant forgive myself. i put him in the new cage i had bought for him, which i didnt use because i didnt feel right having him caged up all day, and i dragged the cage to the balcony and left him out there while i cleaned up. Only one day, he caught up to us, and I felt it before I realised what had happened - I felt the car drive over a bump. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. Not sure Ill ever be able to forgive myself. I am not being harsh but wanted you to know, move forward. I let her go at her own pace and I still carried her. And she is more of a house cat. out of all my dogs , he was my favorite. She failed to alert me to any seriousness of condition. I am at fault for my 12 year old golden retrievers passing. Im the reason my Hedgie died. Ive had an unhealthy attachment to her for so long and have felt so guilty not being around her for a while. She soiled herself at the onset and at one point I put my finger in her throat to check for foreign body and she subsequently bit down quite hard. I am haunted by it. I am so sorry I didnt bring him in. You must sue the defendant in the county where he or she lives or in the county where the death or injury took place. Up until the Monday before we dropped him off there was a lot going on in the house, removing furniture, packing boxes etc, which I can only imagine how unsettling this was for him . She looked like she had rabies. I told all my family the same story I had told to the vet and I think I will have to probably carry this lie to the grave. I wish I could go back in time. These drugs are used to treat pain, inflammation, and fever in people. My fuzzy. He was such a gentle dog and I let him down. We couldnt get him into his normal kennels, and so had to book him in to a new one it had been recommended by another kennel and great reviews. i would never beat him just because and i never came home looking to beat him but this anger inside of me, thats been there for 7 years, would always come out and i wouldnt realize what ive done till after ive done it. We've had two rabbits, two guinea pigs, a bearded dragon, two dogs, plenty of fish, snails, two geckos, and four tortoises. I couldnt drive. I am so sad. You should also think about suing in small claims court. And while my friend suffers a lonely and agonizing death due to my negligence, Im relaxing inside, too lazy to care. Before the nurse came out and collected her and soon after the surgeon came out with her assistant to speak to me. After I cleaned it she was dry heaving again, then began to stagger and breathe very rapidly. He died because of me. Monday night could not find him in the home or garden. I did fast chest compressions but retrospectively I shouldve done them faster since a cats resting heart rate is faster than a humans. You loved that he distracted you from the obvious deficits you have for being a decent human. I had said before we went away to leave the bathroom window tilted open because I had observed our other cat Cleo so artfully scramble her way up the window on many occasions to let herself in. All we can do is try to educate others so that they dont make the same mistakes in an effort to do something positive in our pets honor. He was trying to pretend I couldn't see him. I said we need to prepare ourselves for the worse. If the person lives in the same county as you, then you will sue in your county court. 4.1K Likes, 91 Comments. The minute it stopped entertaining you you didnt care if it died. Time to time i check her to know of how shes doing. I felt awful. We'll listen, and if you want, we'll talk. Did he wonder where we were, why we didnt look for him more? But still somehow I didnt live up to my plans for her. If only i brought her earlier to the vet earlier she wont die she died because of my dumbness. We rushed to the vet but it was too late. I knew there was always a risk but I was told it was 0.7% in healthy bunnies. Im such an idiot. He did it so many times over the years that my wife and I just got used to it, and took it for granted that he would always come back safe. i cant believe i did that to him. I noticed there was still some unsteadiness in her back legs, but she walked up the stairs herself and lay down in her bed. That was over 12 years ago, and I still feel guilty! Were going to an English county that only we know, to a hill only we know, and well say goodbye one last time and let you go. Florio waited for me to come down and pick him up from where he was sleeping by mom and died in my arms an hour later. Kids fuck shit up in a similar way as animals, unfortunately. We aim to keep this a safe space. For a few weeks I tried to help her heal. Some people accidentally cause their dog or cats death by accidentally leaving them in harms way. He loved to go for walks, and where we live, there isn't any place to really let him off the leash to have a good run safely. Gosh the guilt you are feeling. I lost my talking bird just 3 days ago and i blame myself for her death. Two days later, I get a phone call from a man who saw my flyers. I believed her because she had two rabbits growing up. How could I put my sweet baby in harms way!? I wish. I thought she was quiet because shes never stayed at another house before. But being responsible for and witnessing your pet's death can add guilt, trauma and shame to the heartbreak . Maybe I can save another kitty out there somewhere in Yukis name. Seeming eager for playtime or maybe she was trying to get away from this crazy women who was mistreating her. She deserved better. I wish I had asked them to give her IV fluids and keep her a few days to see if she bounced back. I'm so, so sorry for your loss. If this helps anyone cope than Ill be happy please rest in love my Sophie birdie. So I hurried up and put one of the meds in his mouth and waited, then called the vet and she said that it doesnt sound like seizures its sounds like something else but she said to watch him. Shed get so excited when shes hear my voice, and shes lick my finger, I didnt think hamsters could care about a human so much. [AMZN] Jeff Bezos Joined 15/09/2018 Posts 80,103 06:24 PM 25/06/2019 She was very warm which led me to believe this didnt just happen. He died within few minutes after having the symptoms. so im writing this post because i accidentally killed my dog out of anger. ( 3) Depending on the pet's weight, Benadryl can be lethal at doses between 24 mg and 30 mg per kilogram. After one hour she lost her breath she died im so dumb i should have taken her to the vet earlier i should have taken an appointment to the vet the day i found out she lost her appetite so that the next day i can bring her to the vet . I just miss my baby. Because of mehe died. I said goodbye. Theres a rabbit warren there so big you can see it on Google Earth. I dont know how to accept this or go on with myself knowing I was capable of doing something like this. I gave authorisation for her to be put to sleep. Looking into this, its linked to diet, exercise and stress. I did think twice about it before I put her to bed for the night, and ran it past my wife, but she said to me shell be fine. Good luck. Lolly had gone into cardiac arrest as soon as they anaesthetised her. My cat suffered unnecessarily for quite sometime. so this saturday i came home to a messed up house and i snapped. Create an account to follow your favorite communities and start taking part in conversations. The second one we found, I accidentally attacked my buddy's wolf, and his wolf raped my 2nd one and I was sad, I then killed his and he "EXECUTING SADFACE.EXE" and we looked for a while while he tried to suicide IG multiple times, he then went to go play left 4 dead 2 :[R.I.P The last time I went in her cage she looked okay but not great. We held each other. This might be the single worse thing Ive gone through in life. Rest In Peace my perfect Angel. I assumed that he would be better after sometime and decided to give him sometime to recover from his problem. Trigger warning for blood, death. The vet said that it couldve been a congenital heart defect, or E-Cuniculi, and that they ran all their tests before the operation and Lolly was fine, if stressed. I was tired from work and lazy, and my wife has depression and was going through an especially rough episode, so we both just sat around thinking or saying we should walk and call for him, put flyers up, etc, but doing nothing about it. You were annoying little Chihuahua but you were only 8 You had so much more love and life to give!!! I became frightened for myself and felt agony for her suffering. I just rescued a kitten about 2 Weeks ago and she's so attached to me. I fed on the counter like I did my other Yorkie. I just can't stop thinking about how happy she was to see us when we pulled up, and then a few short seconds later her life was ended. We treated him twice through the vet and sometimes with home remedies and sometime he recovered after one or two days of getting sick. She was the only friend I had left. Anyhow im struggling my beloved kid had gone away from me. She stopped eating and her energy totally changed. If youre struggling with grief and guilty feelings because of the circumstances surrounding your dog or cats death, readLetting Go of an Animal You Love: 75 Ways to Survive Pet Loss. We've have had fish die of course. I have a gut-wrenching feeling inside with so much regret from these last 2 weeks or so, even though I think I did good before all of this. The active ingredient in slug bait is metaldehyde, and it can cause uncontrollable seizures in pets. I finally got a call back after 3 from the vet. I hate myself, and Im saying all this here because otherwise it might fall out of my mouth in front of my wife and I CANNOT do that because shes making her peace with it in her own way and the food thing hasnt come to mind for her. So he ate a big scoop of baker,'s chocolate.i didnt know that chocolate is bad for dogs and can prove fatal also. We walked one night that first week he was gone..just one. I never even do treatments each year but had to go in the countryside so thought it was useful. I was busy doing house work today and I briefly remembered her in the laundry room with me, but she always is so I didnt think any more of it. We came home and found him barely clinging to life. Maybe I should to help the vet? Bella's having it pretty sweet right now. I am feeling awfully guilty about this and I know I should. The guilt you are inevitably carrying around ever since that day must weigh incredibly heavy on your heart. He couldnt stand on such a narrow space. Her hair was turning grayer, she didnt play as much, she was very needy of my love and attention. A tiny white ball of fluff, 2 different colored eyes and the most perfect heart shaped pink nose Ive ever seen. She said not with Covid. She was 13.5 years old and just died on Wednesday of septis which was caused by gum disease, an abcess on her gum due to a cracked tooth. My sister killed my moms precious poodle flying down the driveway in her car too fast like she always did. We didnt want any more pain for her so we let her go . Im truly sorry for those of you who are experiencing the same level of grief, blame, anger, guilt and sadness that I am. I ran in front of the AC to cool her down but realized Id rather lay her down and look her over. They gave me the medications and we went home. Thats what I did , but instead of going to their dog houses both males stay paralised which I now understand they mustve been scared . I feel like weve let him down, and we didnt fully appreciate how stressful this situation may have been for him. I know this is easier said than done and it takes effort to forgive yourself. My cat died a few months ago from kidney failure. Now I often ponder his final moments. She said I would have to administer insulin and hypertension meds daily. My cutie. This is a wonderful relationship in general. qualifies. The woman told me to call by 1pm if I had not heard from them. Get help before you hurt somebody. Her eyes were sunken into her skull. This can be a very effective way to treat Cushing's disease, but it comes . They may also feeling the loss of my other cat. Hell, I just came back from fetching my dog in our neighbourhood after he managed to slip out of his collar during breakfast (I have to keep him leashed during feeding because our yard isn't fenced in yet, unfortunately). He laid by my feet and i know he shouldnt have been but he was calming down. I put a on a glove and pulled it out. I wouldn't move him and stayed in the car with him. It's been 5 years since he died. Toxicity can occur if a dog is given an excessive dose of the medication (10 to 20 times the recommended dose). I was crying, exhausted, my adrenaline teetering. My baby is dead because of me. His adoption fee is $45. I believe I am the worst of all of these. Realizing shes fine here and there without food and water. I went in, I told her. It hurts so much more that I dont even know exactly when she died and I couldnt find her in her usual state. My mum and sister were on the phone and they told me to let her go. I cant live with myself in this severe pain. It didnt seem that important and now I realise she was suffering, in pain. A Vetoryl overdose can cause a dog to become lethargic, vomit, and seizure. If you saw a dog killing on purpose, you may lose all your finances.If you dreamt about killing your own dog, this dream means you will have a long-lasting conflict with one of your relatives or friends.It is better to find consensus. #3. I feel guilt because of the circumstances that led to his death over the past 2 weeks. Hi Everyone, I saw a posting about this several months ago but I can't seem to find it. Thank you. The voice on the other end says that he has found Tiny, but it was already too late. We experience the acute phase of grief, or the moment right after passing. I feel horrible. She is also strong and healthy and has a younger cat named Fern to keep her active. I deserve to feel this way. Gwen was depending on me to care for her looking back maybe she was tryna tell me something maybe if I had of took a small amount of time to make sure she had what she needed she could be here eating hay living life. But its a horrible feeling. Depending on the manner of killing you can interpret . I loved her so much. Honestly just forgot about her once I was home. Completely dehydrated. So I gave him to my mom (who I take care of) and said mom we just have to let him pass it and go through it, its happened before, she said to me that he was going to die and my dumb self said no because I didnt think so. Fern tries to play with her; theyre working out a dynamic. I got the water hose and cleaned it up and found some in his house. You have actually committed a crime. You are going to save that dog from euthanasia. TikTok video from Manar (@antisocial_hijabi88): "Traumatization #fyp #foryou #arab #arabic #storytime #grwm #makeup #hijab #arabmom #arabtok #arabsbelike #pet #petfish #arabicgrwm". The vet recommended she stay overnight to be monitored after receiving insulin with the hope that would improve her unsteadiness. Looking back on it I remembered my washing machine was louder than normal, but I didnt think anything of it. I said sorry to Lolly out loud, for so many things. I heard a thump and I immediately knew what must have happened. I remember his voice and face. We came home from somewhere and here it came following her, my wife stumbled and stepped on that poor little kitten. If there is a heaven, its certain our animals are to be there, says Pam Brown. Remember, however, that each dog is unique, and some dog owners may experience adverse reactions to fish oil supplements. I dont know if he will forgive me because he was too young to die i wish he was left with his family because i couldnt become a good parent to him i couldnt protect him.. im a bad person really theres no one to talk to about my pain.My guilt confession if i were more responsible he would still be alive and this very thought makes me feel guilty. We all really, really loved him. I know it's been a long time but I don't think I ever accepted the loss, and I still blame myself and our carelessness. Maybe you should attempt to be helpful / constructive before hateful and useless. so i would whip his ass, sometimes going to far and really hurting him. So for the next two days with an excessive heat warning in place I looked everywhere and called out as best I could without irritating any neighbors, I placed her cage out with food and water and rattled her bell she loved everywhere. We live in an apartment at 14th floor. i kicked the $#%^ out of him a couple times and i beat him in his head as well. (Though her birds are native to where I live.) I left and walked home. Im going to start by sharing my story so others do not make the same mistakes I did. A careless groomer gives a dog razor burn, which becomes infected and requires medical attention. My wife was in the living room. I try to apologize to him but I notice that his head was fixed at his left side , so i think I may have broke something. When I noticed I tried to grab him by the collar, he thought I was playing and ran out onto the road right in front of a bus. By then he was in bad shape. Your child won't understand for a long time so don't take that personal. In her notes she wrote will start pt on Enalipril in the near future. They had put him in a black garbage bag out in their driveway. Had she been a good vet, more emphasis wouldve been put on potential disease processes and what I should look for. We dropped him off on the Monday and were due to collect him on the Friday morning. - JoshDM. I never expected her to get so bad so quickly. We didnt want him to lose our homes scent, but he grew more agitated and restless. This is hitting me so hard. If your dog just recently died and you are reading this, breathe. I lost my dog a week ago she had a tumor that had ulcerated as well as other things going on . I feel I could have prevented it. On my way to the bedroom I felt her go limp. She fell, still dont know how or why but it broke her neck. I cry every day, a deep guttural, painful cry. NOT BUYING ONE. My 4 year old keeps asking questions and saying things like, "Mommy, I didn't want you to kill Bella." I walked around the house calling her to no avail. I administered her 1 unit of Insulin and gave the first dose of Enalipril. He even rebelled when I put it on him!! I did it when she asked, but I shouldnt have waited for her to ask me. We were just pulling into my in laws driveway after a few days away. I shouldnt have taken him out. I noticed if I stopped, she would go limp, and was not breathing on her own or with a pulse. my father was killed in 2010, which was my senior year in high school and i was never the same. After I basically prepared her casket. I cried a whole roll of toilet paper and asked god to tell me where she is, and my head turned to the right, where the sump pump in the floor is. The Animal Legal Defense Fund is a 501(c)(3) nonprofit organization. Good luck, You need to get a grip before this becomes your life. I'm so sorry to hear that. I feel so sick with grief and that its my fault my cat died.